You can’t stay mad at someone who makes you smile.
I don’t know what I studied. Did I study? fmlfmlfml finals soon . )))”:
I need to save up and buy a new iPod. The one I have right now keeps crashing..! :( music stops, out of nowhere. Fml. I’ve stepped and broke 3 earphones, and now my iPod…
I need someone to tell me white lies and that everything is okay..
1. I’m going to be a big disappointment.
2. I miss this one follower. I wonder why he deactivated his tumblr.
for once, i wish it wasn’t, “where are you going?”
“I’M GONNA BE A STRIPPER AT NIGHT, STUDENT DURING THE DAY.”
hate homework, so i’m wasting time by camera whorin’.
and those are my pj’s….! :l red, blue, and orangeee..
fuck my braces. hurts to brush my teeth… )’:
and my sister and i picked the same braces color. LOL
what life would be like if I was famous. Would I be able to touch Ryan Reynolds? Or jump at Tom Felton or Taylor Lautner? ]: Even if I study hard, go to college, and get a degree, I won’t be making much as a celebrity. Why can’t I be talentedd. And you know those celebrities who are famous because they are…just famous? I still won’t earn as much as them.
econ is fun! but it’s still a depressing class..my grade goes from an A->B->D->B…once you input today’s test grade… F- F for fsuree an F. ))):
My cousins are going back to their school on Sunday. I guess I’ll be a little sad because random family dinners won’t be the same without them. I’ll be the oldest, sadly, haha. I want to check out SB and see a drunk guy or girl..haha. It’s amazing, right? Good scores and a party school; sounds like a win-win to me! Too bad it’s on a Sunday. Or maybe go to SD and stalk swimmer boyy. OR Riverside for keppel boy C: hehe. I’m just kidding..
Soon, I’ll be applying to a UC here and there..honestly, I don’t care which one I get into. Any UC is fine with me. At the same time, I don’t know if I want to apply out of state..I know that’ll be a big wtf to my parents because I knoww (1) they don’t have the money for 30k tuition and (2) they’ll say if you can’t even get into a UC, what makes you think out of states will accept you? They also don’t want me to be away from home, but that’s exactly what I want. Not that I don’t love them; I don’t want to stay here. I want to be on my own, as in hundreds and hundreds of miles away. I just need to get out of Cali… I dont want to be like my cousins and stay here. I want to try. And it doesn’t hurt, right? It’s just some of the work. And the fee…it’s not like they have to worry because I will probably not be accepted. Since the beginning of this month, I’ve done so much google-ing on colleges and majors that I don’t even want to turn on the computer because I know I’ll push aside hmwk and just end up looking for info again. And again. It is such a bad habit and makes me depressed every time. I read so many opinions and comments on this school or that major, i don’t even know if I have any chance because people on college confidential are hella smart. Is it right to say that I deserve to be in that college? I’ve worked hard, but my grades are shitty. As a person, however,…
So, as I read through the info, I wish I redo high school again. I feel like I missed out on all the important info about college admissions and it’s too late now. I have so many unanswered questions. I’m afraid that if i found out, my morale will drop to -100000. But i want to know; face reality, i guess :(. It is only September too. Imagine me from December and then Fevruary- March. I’d be anxious. So anxious. I don’t want to disappoint. I don’t want relatives talking behind my back, if I failed. I’ve been asking constance and chea a lot of questions lately, so thanks.
I feel like my life is on the line. My life depends on all this.
For the past few days, I’ve been looking at this because I can not believe how accurate this is about me. But at the same time, I police my own body. On Tumblr, there are so many pretty girls. For some, I don’t need to see her face; the body is enough. I always assume that if the body is nice, then so is her face. Not only can i not afford the clothes, i would never fit them. I will never be able to wear a size 3 2 or 1, or a small or xsmall. Whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I see fat in all the wrong places- arms, waist, and legs. I wish I can pull clothes off the rack in Forever21 and not worry about trying them on in the dressing room. I always stare at myself in there, deciding whether or not I should really buy it. Wondering if I would really look nice in them once I’m in public. In the end, I don’t buy that shirt. Girl #1 or 2 would look much better in it. I can never wear it as well as some girls, so let them wear it. It’s really depressing because I want so many shirts and even if I can’t buy them, knowing that I feel great in them is enough…my friends have told me that I’m not fat. And it makes me feel a bit better about myself. But I have a hard time believing them because it always sound like they are just saying it; they don’t sound sincere at all. Fine. I’m not fat, but I’m not skinny. I always feel so so so SO awkward around people who complain about being skinny, are able to eat so much, can’t gain weight,and talk about other skinny people. Because here I am, feeling fat and self conscious- feeling out of place- next to you. My friends are always saying I never see you in shorts..I never gave them a complete, direct answer because I’m afraid..trust me, I’ve seen myself in it and I don’t look good. I don’t wanna scar you . And I don’t want people staring at my elephant legs. They don’t know what it’s like, having trouble finding clothes…they are already skinny..lol. Like when I go out and eat with them, I always eat less. I don’t want to feel or look like the fat ass..so I try to eat less than everyone else. I’ve never been happy in my own skin, own body.
- Me: Are you gonna watch Harry Potter?
- Danny: Yeah
- Me: Take meeee!!
- Him: I have a girlfriend..
- Me: Soo? I'm sure she's nice
at my grades, hoping they would change. i’m waiting for apush and apes right now ): i hope my apush grade doesn’t drop a lot b/c suo told me the video project was worth a lot- about/ around 80 points ><. but a few people said that because my group and i went first, he would be more lenient..i don’t believe that. and for apes, i really want an A. but the finals we took? those fucked me over. fuck ): for our calculation final, she curved it so that it was out of 30 points- 98% of us still failed. ): that shows how (1) hard it was or (2) how much we studied. and as i’m staring at my grades, i’m kind of losing hope. why am i trying so hard on my SATs/ ACT? i don’t think i can go anywhere with this…so f.u.c.k.
oh, did you know that riley is retiring? why couldn’t he do this, oh i don’t know, 4 years ago?